What’s In a Name?

This post by Alberto Villoldo sums up my personalshakespearwhatisname654.jpg philosophy about ‘names’ in general or in assigning ‘the doings of our life’ descriptions to ourselves for the benefit of others who are busy trying to classify us in their own minds in some way, i.e.:  I’m a teacher….I’m a writer…I’m a helpful/not-so-helpful person…besides evidently being impatient and rude to friends, etc.  (It’s a wonder that I have any friends. 🙂 )

Yesterday sitting around the table at a group gathering, a friend was doing a lengthy explanation to the rest of us about a sudden personal revelation that she had had. It pertained to how she now ‘defined’ herself in some way—meaning, she said it defined WHO she is now, as opposed to WHO she was in the past (or at least how she saw herself from then to now).

Not being a (name) socially polite or (name) patient person myself, through all the elaborate bobbing and weaving in her lengthy story, I rudely cut in and asked, “But WHO are you?”   I mean wasn’t that the entire point of the whoamiquote234.jpgstory? Who are you now, that you weren’t two weeks ago?  Wasn’t that the most important thing for her to know that she had suddenly discovered on her life journey?

She looked a bit miffed at (name) old-rude-me, and then smilingly said that if I’d just let her finish, she would have told us who she was.  With me now properly but politely chastised, she started the story again, winding here and there, here and there, and guess what?  She never did tell us WHO she now was; instead she simply told us what she planned to do or to pursue in the near future.

Eh, ….that’s not the same thing is it? Who you are and what you do? Not to me anyway.

So this morning Alberto puts out this post about using names and identifying yourself in certain ways that tend to become self-fulfilling prophecies.  And not surprisingly, he makes my point below far better than I just did above, so I listed it here in its entirety.

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 Alberto Villoldo  (on Facebook)

I am.

These are two of the most powerful words in our language. Whatever words we place after these two words shapes our reality for the entire day, and sometimes for the rest of our lives.

The first time you experience your “I am” is when you learn your name.

For a long time, I introduced myself as “I am Alberto,” instead of saying “My name is Alberto.” I believed I was my name, which was also my grandfather’s name; it was the extension of the story of my family. What I knew about our family history revealed that we were pirates and highwaymen, with an occasional slave owner and merchant on our family tree─not much to look up to, really.

When you say, “I am <your name here>,” you rouse the spells of your ancestors. Some of these spells are about your health and how you will live and how you will die. When you go to your doctor, she asks what your parents died from. Breast cancer, heart disease, dementia─she tells you that your destiny has been cast, that it is written in your family genetics. When you go to the therapist, she shows you that the stories that run in your family leap from one generation to the next, until you become just like the mother or father you vowed you would never become.

If you live long enough, you will get to ask the question Who am I?

It is a terrible question, because it launches you on a journey into places and experiences that are unknown. You realize that you are not your name, that you are not your family, that you are not your job or any of your myriad roles in your life. That you hate Brussels sprouts and love the opera is not, I repeat not, who you are. Until you begin to transform the dream of security, you do not have the foggiest idea of who you really are.

But ask the question; this is a step in the right direction.

When my father was in his seventies he called early one morning and said to me, “Alberto, I have been living someone else’s life. I have tried to be a good husband, a good provider, a good person. But I have no idea whose life I have been living.” And for the next few years after he asked himself that question, he lived his own life until he died. I like to think that my father died at the age of five, but it was a well-lived five years.

After you spend a long time discovering that you can’t be defined by your name or by your nationality or by your gender ─ that all of these are real but not intrinsically true ─ you begin to understand that what you thought was your life and your identity was only a daydream.

You let go of the need to place something after “I am ____,” because you now recognize it is a complete statement (without filling in the blank).”

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The Loss of Collective Innocence

Again I’ll mention that I don’t know beans about astrology, zodiastarsconstellations.jpgbut I do know that the correlations between various light sources (direct light from the sun vs. reflected light from all other planets and moons, stars, etc.)  plus their mutually affecting orbits, gravities and counter-gravitational forces on each other, do form verifiable patterns of effect on which astrology bases its theories of planetary influence in the cosmos.  That disclaimer made, I listened to Kaypacha’s “Astrology for the Soul for Sept. 18th, 2019”, and heard this:

We are in the midst of the Great Awakening….  because Uranus is in Taurus for another 6 years.  It’s the end of illusionALL illusion dies—a lot of our dreams and illusions are crumpling down now—falling apart. Was our reality so real after all?  Or was it all a fantasy in our minds? …We’re feeling suppressed and overwhelmed…”   (Everything is feeling so overdone… so heavy.  Is this awfulness that we’re experiencing right now as a collective what LIFE is really about, or is LIFE what we make it?)

He continues:

“We’re all feeling lots of grief now—the need for letting go of the past—Saturn’s been sitting stationary for so long—forcing self-reflection on us…but Saturn is going direct now and taking that past away.   So wake up…what you’ve been doing in the past has created bad karma, so stop doing that bad stuff that damages your living environment.”

To which I wondered ‘Do we even know what “bad stuff” we are doing, consciously or not?’  Some things might be more obvious than others—like climate change, global warming, and ecological disasters. But I’m sure that the deeper psychological effects on us individually are much harder to determine.

Anyway, I’ll list the video here if you want to view it but he raises some interesting points for consideration.

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New Paradigm Astrology

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EDOurPSTe2o&feature=share&fbclid=IwAR3TiYPFXe90ZmcSd0NTbiuGdjyNPkn5JHbX4zhx-CsUv3ic0SgrkEY61ac

When I’m feeling overwhelmed, A victim with no control, I need to get up, get out and shout, If only to hear myself roar.

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We are experiencing, along with stern Father Time standing still, a preponderance of 3/4 squares. The 270 degree square is considered a “crisis in consciousness.” Sun/Moon, Mercury/Saturn, Venus/Saturn, Jupiter/Neptune are all conspiring to make us all more conscious. At some point the question may arise, “Just how conscious do I wanna be?” It’s all about “growing up,” says Saturn. Part of that is the loss of innocence, which can include spontaneity, fun, play, joy, and fantasy/dreams. The “it’s all gonna be OK” can get drowned out by “You are responsible for correcting the situation or it won’t be OK!”

While this is part of the evolutionary process, the truth is, it may not be fun changing our ways, letting go of unconscious behavior patterns, and accepting the responsibility. At times like this it is also healthy to have patience with ourselves, accept that we are striving human beings and feel the loss of innocence and the grief, anger, and pain that may be involved. The north node in Cancer says it’s OK to cry, scream and shout when our toys get taken away. Bottling up our feelings in order to grin and bear it can also have negative impact in the present or down the road. So let out a big roar!”      Kaypacha Lescher

 

The “AGE OF THE FOOL”

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During my studies of Andean Shamanism and Native American cultures, I ran across the legend of the HEYOKA—the Fool—the Clown—the Contrarian, that I’ll briefly share here.

The Heyoka of a tribe was the person who often acted opposite to tribe rules and to socially acceptable norms; and he especially enjoyed performing the opposite of whatever might be expected from him, because he stood out better that way—he received far more attention from others, even if it was undignified comments at best.

Here’s a Wikipedia description:

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The Heyókȟa is thought of as being backwards-forwards, upside-down, or contrary in nature. This manifests by their doing things backwards or heyobackwwardhorse.jpgunconventionally—riding a horse backwards, wearing clothes inside-out, or speaking in a backwards language. For example, if food is scarce, a heyókȟa may sit around and complain about how full he is; during a baking hot heat wave, a heyókȟa might shiver with cold and put on gloves and cover himself with a thick blanket. …

Principally, the heyókȟa functions both as a mirror and a teacher, using extreme behaviors to mirror others, and forcing them to examine their own doubts, fears, hatreds, and weaknesses. Heyókȟa have the power to heal emotional pain; such power comes from the experience of shame—they sing of shameful events in their lives, beg for food, and live as clowns. They provoke laughter in distressing situations of despair, and provoke fear and chaos when people feel complacent and overly secure, to keep them from taking themselves too seriously or believing they are more powerful than they are.[3]

In addition, sacred clowns serve an important role in shaping tribal codes. Unbound by societal constraints, heyókȟa are able to violate cultural taboos freely and thus critique established customs.[4] Paradoxically, however, by violating these norms and taboos, they help to define the accepted boundaries, rules, and societal guidelines for ethical and moral behavior. …”

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The Sacred Fool kept everyone alert to tribe anomalies by accentuating them so that all could more readily see the problem developing within the tribe’s governing structure or within growing member discontent and divisiveness.

But never did the tribe make a Heyoka the Tribal Chief—the leader of the tribe—because to do so would lead the tribe right off a cliff, or at minimal, lead them right into frictional group chaos, because that’s what Heyokas were best at doing—creating chaos wherever they went.

I personally think that’s what we are presently undergoing in our nation—we’re being lead by the tribe’s Heyoka.

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The best behavioral example a Heyoka can ever demonstrate is to show you what NOT to do.

And he’s doing that really well.

 

The Beauty of Choice

Just talked to a close friend about her recent psychic reading from a woman she had never met and who had no idea about my friend’s life, history, family, etc. Sometimes those are the most accurate readings because the person doing the reading then has no tainted feelings about it one way or the other.

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My friend’s impression of the ‘reading’ was that the lady was fairly accurate in stating some basic facts, but in others ways the woman made some erroneous ‘interpretations’ on what she might have been seeing or intuiting during the session.  (We all filter the world we see through our own biases and personal histories.  Good psychics recognize their innate tendency to judge and proselytize with a client, so they restrain themselves.  Not-so-good ones will tell you their opinions, instead of simply relaying the facts presented to them.)

One of the statements the psychic made even claimed that prior to our incarnation, we make contracts with our closest relations to come here and “act in certain ways” with each other.  She then said, “So don’t be unhappy with your (family-person) for how that person acted, and what you or she had to endure during that person’s life here because it was all preordained to play out exactly as it did.  She couldn’t have been any other way.”

To that I say BULLSHIT

We may incarnate with a set family of mutually-agreed spirits who are here to evolve and grow their own consciousness through interactions with each other, as well as through interactions with those beyond the initial family group, but HOW we individually act throughout our lives is a choice that we make every minute of every day that we breathe this earthly air. That’s what ‘free-will’ is all about. We ALL have choices in what we do and how we do it.

Every moment that we are alive involves a choice in how we respond to our surroundings and to all external stimuli; and those choices are both personally affecting to our own soul’s evolution and mutually affecting to others in our selected family groups at the same time (even affecting to the greater collective consciousness).

To live our lives daily, we ALL make choices, and each choice leads to other choices that diverge from that first choice like a tree branch growing new twigs that reach in ekrquotechoices54.jpgdifferent directions as the branch continues to grow up toward the sky. When you choose one particular branch of that tree of life to follow, you are pretty much limiting your upward growth potential to that branch’s original direction, otherwise you have to backtrack all the way down the original tree branch to the trunk base to then choose a different branch to follow because in this life, you’re not a leaping squirrel and can jump from this main branch to another main one and expect your life to simply shift for the better because of it.  It takes real work to reverse an unwise original direction.

It is possible and well worthwhile to change unwise original directions, but it won’t be easily done because we all make choices daily from early childhood onwards, and every choice leads to more choices until a general life direction is established. Then as we get older personal attitude, natural tendencies to rely on established habit, and other motivations to either face down each new challenge before us or to give up and succumb to them by numbing ourselves out with booze or pills, become the determiners of how far up that particular branch you climb.

Those are ALL CHOICES that we willingly make—that is NOT predetermination.  Period.

Yes, there are extremely difficult situations that we may have experienced in this life that might be excellent learning opportunities in disguise, BUT it takes a pretty enlightened person to view them as such. Otherwise, we simply view them as they were originally presented to us—just awful and senseless living environments that were hard for us to endure back then, and even harder to make sense of now.

But even with those previous takingchargeofmylifechoicehardships and tests of personal endurance, we still face a choice in how we respond to those memory challenges.  As a child, you might have been the unwilling recipient of your parent’s momentary or long-term instability, but as an adult who is capable of better understanding human weaknesses or frailties, you NOW have the choice in how you view those situations, and more importantly—you have the CHOICE in how you presently react to or not-react to those unpleasant memories.

Your offending parent made numerous choices in his or her life, and those choices may have adversely affected you as an impressionable and vulnerable child. While you had few choices at the time to handle those difficult childhood situations, you have many choices now to deal with the residual memories and tainted attitudes that may still haunt you.

That is the beauty of choice: Every moment presents you with a new one.

Despite what that psychic erroneously told my friend, happiness isn’t something predetermined for you prior to this life.

Happiness is a choice you make and a path that you decide to follow.

 

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Live-stream Option for Dr. Joe Event

Again, just passing along the live-stream opportunity here.  Too bad it isn’t free. ($50)

As an energy worker myself, I am encouraged to see how well he explains the energy body and how our total system functions because we tend to think only of our physical body as the instigator of all our illnesses and maladies; but the energy body is the animator of our being and when those main chakra energy centers are blocked or damaged in some way, it throws our physical/mental/emotional systems into complete disarray.

I’ll list the promotion info for the event and then comment again afterwards:

Dr Joe Dispenza – OFFICIAL NEWS & FAN PAGE

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“An intentional thought needs an energizer, a catalyst— that energy is an elevated emotion. Heart and mind working together. Feelings and thoughts unified into a state of being. The quantum field doesn’t respond simply to our wishes—our emotional request. It doesn’t just respond to our aims— our thoughts. It only responds when those two are aligned or coherent— that is, when they are broadcasting the same signal. When we combined an elevated emotion with an open heart and conscious intention with clear thought, we signal the field to respond in amazing ways. The quantum field responds not to what we want; it responds to who we are being.

The quantum is the realm of infinite possibility. The only way you can experience this realm is with your awareness, and when you do, your consciousness is connecting to greater levels of frequencies and information.   Dr. Joe is giving you the opportunity of a lifetime to enter the quantum field as the collective consciousness of our community to create a new experience or new possibilities in your life.⁣⁣

You can join our upcoming live stream where Dr. Joe will be breaking down The Formula to change your life radically the live stream is taking place on July 27th at 10am pst (unlimited viewing for 30 days)  ($50 cost)  The main reason we are taking portions of our advanced retreats and turning them into a live stream format is that you, the community, have requested it.⁣⁣

Link in here to register and learn more! English, Spanish, French, German and Russian are all available https://linktr.ee/drjoedispenza

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(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1SL95sWIVJ4 )

I found this particular testimonial from his workshops was excellent in terms of how a woman worked through the energy release of healing her childhood sexual abuse.   It offers excellent explanations of the chakra energy centers releasing shame/guilt/terror energy blockages and then reopening and realigning the energy centers, and how that physically and emotionally affects us.  Joe explained it more thoroughly as she spoke including physical ramifications of blockages and reopenings.

But honestly I must say that the testimonial prior to that one did make me cringe (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IuvELXutkf0 )  with his hands-y approach to the young woman, and watching her facial discomfort with his wrapping around her from behind and his hand on her chest area (heart chakra location—heart, lungs, bronchial areas because she previously suffered from debilitating asthma).  I do think that was inappropriate and I will call him out on that.  I know what he was saying and doing energy-wise about using his own energetic heart opening behind her to encourage her heart to burst open, but still….the manner in which he demonstrated the heart-opening effect on her was highly inappropriate. And yes, that did adversely taint my opinion of his teaching techniques so we’ll see where it goes from here.

So form your own opinions on the content and benefits of what he is describing.

 

More on the Current Erratic Energies (Paul Selig on BTO Show July 9th, 2019)

Season19_Paul.pngJust listened to Paul Selig’s audio from Tuesday’s “Beyond the Ordinary Show” (John Burgos) and amazingly, he hits exactly the same points that I mentioned in my last post on these erratic energies that are affecting us; and it also expands on my previous posting (May 10th, 2019) pertaining to Selig’s latest book on the Upper World frequency which he (as channel) refers to as “the Upper Room”.

Basically again I’m just sharing the info I run across and providing access to the various sources of higher-frequency connections that are shifting us collectively and/or personally higher as we allow it.

You can form your own opinions of the sources and materials provided.  I’m not hard-selling anything—just making it available. If something mentioned here resonates with you then it provides a starting point for your own further pursuit.

https://bto19.s3.amazonaws.com/replay/Paul_Selig_replay.mp3

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That being said, here is my take on this particular Paul Selig BTO talk:

  • How you serve is how you are most fully expressed as your True Self.
  • Our main problem as a collective consciousness is that we feel disconnected from our true Divinity, and we fail to recognize that same Divinity exists in ALL things.
  • As we live our lives in FEAR we stay in pure survival mode, fearfully separating ourselves from others and from the world around us.
  • What we are experiencing at present is the cleaning out of our old energies (memories) so we can shift higher in frequency and become our TRUE DIVINE SELF.
  • To release those stagnant and repressed energies, we must allow our old wounds to surface for re-examination from a more mature (less reactive) perspective so we then gain greater understanding of the learning opportunities each one provided to better understanding our own abilities, capabilities, and expanded awareness.
  • “Your experience will now be formed by your higher level of consciousness and likewise, you will project that higher consciousness (energies and perspective) into your world. You lift higher whatever you encounter.”
  • “Humanity is having a reckoning—and it’s a reckoning of the facing of oneself and one’s creations, and that everything that is known or created in fear must be re-known or recreated now in a higher way.”
  • Now is a time of great opportunity—the opportunity for change—BIG change. But we have to seize the opportunity to change or we will simply be left further behind because of our inclinations to default to previously set behavior patterns and to set ways of perceiving ourselves interacting with our world and with each other.
  • In essence we are re-birthing ourselves to a higher-frequency existence; and it is not pleasant to go through those labor pains of birthing ourselves anew.
  • We all are presently going through this unpleasant process that forces us to re-examine everything we once believed about ourselves—believed about who we were as loving human beings and about why we exist—even believed about how others were either important to us or not important to us.
  • The masquerade ball is now over, and we are being forced to DROP OUR MASKS; and when that happens we will simply be exposed for who we really are—standing there in all our nakedness—all our flaws—all our prejudices—all our imperfections—standing there not only in front of all others who might judge us—but mainly standing there in front of that reflective mirror to truly see ourselves for who we are pretending to be in our own judgments, and then to let it all go—let it go so that we can be our True Divine Selves without the ego attachment to superficial values and the need for social conformity. It’s not easy to stand naked in front of the mirror and really like what you see, but if all that you see in that mirror is Divine and ALL is simply another form of Divinity expressed in a more unique manner, then it is much easier to like it—and to love ourselves.
  • We are undergoing a process of personal destabilization to re-set our balance and comfort levels to a new higher frequency.turboceanwaves43
  • Do your best. Release your fear.
  • Release old wound energies. And allow this turbulent ocean of energy to wash over you, toss you about, and swirl you to wherever you next need to be.
  • The only thing we know for certain is that we won’t be the same being that we were prior to embarking on these churning seas.

I guess the only real solace I can personally offer is that you are not alone in feeling this inner turmoil—we all are going through this re-creation process in our own ways. Even Selig and Burgos both said that they were not having a ‘fun time’ during all this tumultuousness.  And I’m certainly not either. So again, if you are feeling destabilized (and Selig just said that he was feeling destabilized himself) know that you aren’t alone in this. It’s just something we all have to endure until the storm has passed. You simply have to ride it out.

My suggestion is that pen and paper may help to get your inner thoughts out for more thorough examination. You might try journaling to get better connected to what you are feeling and thinking day by day; or even to help release those unpleasant memories that might arise or to curb your too-active mind that won’t allow you some inner peace.

Put it on the page under your hand, and get it out of your head.  It helps.  Does for me.

 

Roller Coaster Energies

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I can’t speak for others or what you might personally be feeling, but as an energy-empath I can feel the current turbulence in the energy ocean surrounding us.  After listening to a couple people online who also regularly follow the energies of this time period (Kaypache and Lee Harris), they also are mentioning the energy extremes occurring for us at present.

Harris said it was like riding a roller coaster up, down, over, around, and then repeating it over and over. So take your Dramamine.  ( https://www.leeharrisenergy.com/july-2019-energy-update )

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Here’s how he phrased it:

“We are definitely in a period of EXTREMES – with extreme speed, extreme transformation and extreme and unexpected happenings in our lives waking us up and shaking us up. As we go through July and August, that unexpected and extreme energy is going to come into sharp focus – both for individuals and for all of us as a collective.

The main themes for July focus on how we can SURF THE EXTREME ENERGY:

  • ALIGNMENT AND REJECTION
  • ELEVATION AND DEPLETION
  • REALIZATION AND REFLECTION …”

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You can check out his page and video for details, but what I want to mention is this: Energy turbulence all around us creates anxiety within us—an unsettled feeling—an uncertainty—we feel unsure of what is happening and how to react to it—we don’t feel as grounded as we might normally feel—we don’t feel as sure of ourselves and of our ability to deal with whatever we might face.

And in one sense all of those affects can have nothing to do with us personally and yet EVERYTHING to do with us collectively.

kapacheport452.jpgKaypache (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EbXHGJg9WRo&feature=share ) described it as a time of deep diving into our repressed emotional wounds to allow the pain to surface, to be reexamined, and then to be willingly released. These turbulent energies are shaking us up and creating the instability within us to allow those repressed feelings and pains from childhood onwards to be released from us completely.  But you have to be willing to reflect on the effect that those experiences have previously had on you, and then to simply let them go. It’s not easily done, but it is VERY necessary to do it, and this is the perfect energy time for it to happen.

“I need to really love myself, In order to go back and heal the wounds of my personal past, to keep my life on track. …

…It’s not easy to go into what we consider our vulnerable weaknesses, and yet, it is where we find our greatest gold! The “outside” may be demanding a lot of our attention, but I’m feeling that it is a test, only a test, of how much we love ourselves. Will we neglect our own personal processes and growth to meet the demands of “the Man,” or will we be strong enough to realize when we have given enough and refuse to be intimidated into giving more. The rewards are great for the inner work which is not so valued in this high paced, expensive, world. It takes guts! Let’s do it!”

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And if the personal disruption gets too strong and you feel unstable and unable to handle it, then get some help.  Counselors may not understand the “energy turbulence” part, but they are well-versed in allowing you to “talk out” the repressed issues that might be arising for you now because of that energy disruption.

Just saying, …if you have no idea what is actually happening to you, then it can feel pretty mentally destabilizing when all your old STUFF starts swirling around in your head or coming up in your face.

I’m not a certified counselor or a psychologist, but I do know how disruptive these energies can be to your ‘sense of self’—to that concept of who you believe yourself to be, which includes how you’ve always considered yourself.

And the entire point of the current energy disruption is to allow you to release the “old sense of you’ and to encourage the NEW and IMPROVED YOU (the higher-frequency you) to emerge and blossom.

It’s that old ‘water glass scenario’ again—you can’t refill your glass with that pure, clear, nourishing water until you first pour out the old spoiled milk from it, and then thoroughly scrub the glass before refilling.cleanwaterglass44

While it’s totally necessary to do it, it’s often not a pleasant housekeeping task.

Hang in there!  We’ll get through it.