Roller Coaster Energies

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I can’t speak for others or what you might personally be feeling, but as an energy-empath I can feel the current turbulence in the energy ocean surrounding us.  After listening to a couple people online who also regularly follow the energies of this time period (Kaypache and Lee Harris), they also are mentioning the energy extremes occurring for us at present.

Harris said it was like riding a roller coaster up, down, over, around, and then repeating it over and over. So take your Dramamine.  ( https://www.leeharrisenergy.com/july-2019-energy-update )

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Here’s how he phrased it:

“We are definitely in a period of EXTREMES – with extreme speed, extreme transformation and extreme and unexpected happenings in our lives waking us up and shaking us up. As we go through July and August, that unexpected and extreme energy is going to come into sharp focus – both for individuals and for all of us as a collective.

The main themes for July focus on how we can SURF THE EXTREME ENERGY:

  • ALIGNMENT AND REJECTION
  • ELEVATION AND DEPLETION
  • REALIZATION AND REFLECTION …”

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You can check out his page and video for details, but what I want to mention is this: Energy turbulence all around us creates anxiety within us—an unsettled feeling—an uncertainty—we feel unsure of what is happening and how to react to it—we don’t feel as grounded as we might normally feel—we don’t feel as sure of ourselves and of our ability to deal with whatever we might face.

And in one sense all of those affects can have nothing to do with us personally and yet EVERYTHING to do with us collectively.

kapacheport452.jpgKaypache (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EbXHGJg9WRo&feature=share ) described it as a time of deep diving into our repressed emotional wounds to allow the pain to surface, to be reexamined, and then to be willingly released. These turbulent energies are shaking us up and creating the instability within us to allow those repressed feelings and pains from childhood onwards to be released from us completely.  But you have to be willing to reflect on the effect that those experiences have previously had on you, and then to simply let them go. It’s not easily done, but it is VERY necessary to do it, and this is the perfect energy time for it to happen.

“I need to really love myself, In order to go back and heal the wounds of my personal past, to keep my life on track. …

…It’s not easy to go into what we consider our vulnerable weaknesses, and yet, it is where we find our greatest gold! The “outside” may be demanding a lot of our attention, but I’m feeling that it is a test, only a test, of how much we love ourselves. Will we neglect our own personal processes and growth to meet the demands of “the Man,” or will we be strong enough to realize when we have given enough and refuse to be intimidated into giving more. The rewards are great for the inner work which is not so valued in this high paced, expensive, world. It takes guts! Let’s do it!”

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coasterkids2 (1).jpgBasically all I want to do is to mention to any one reading my blog that IF you are feeling this inner anxiety or a sense of turbulence in your life, and you see no real reason for it, then don’t despair—you aren’t slipping off the deep end.  These are the effects of the energies we are swimming in at present.  They do have a purpose in all their disruption, though it might not seem like a pleasant one.

And if the personal disruption gets too strong and you feel unstable and unable to handle it, then get some help.  Counselors may not understand the “energy turbulence” part, but they are well-versed in allowing you to “talk out” the repressed issues that might be arising for you now because of that energy disruption.

Just saying, …if you have no idea what is actually happening to you, then it can feel pretty mentally destabilizing when all your old STUFF starts swirling around in your head or coming up in your face.

I’m not a certified counselor or a psychologist, but I do know how disruptive these energies can be to your ‘sense of self’—to that concept of who you believe yourself to be, which includes how you’ve always considered yourself.

And the entire point of the current energy disruption is to allow you to release the “old sense of you’ and to encourage the NEW and IMPROVED YOU (the higher-frequency you) to emerge and blossom.

It’s that old ‘water glass scenario’ again—you can’t refill your glass with that pure, clear, nourishing water until you first pour out the old spoiled milk from it, and then thoroughly scrub the glass before refilling.cleanwaterglass44

While it’s totally necessary to do it, it’s often not a pleasant housekeeping task.

Hang in there!  We’ll get through it.

 

LIFE in Disarray

This morning while slurping down much-needed coffee, I was listening to the local news reports about the latest city shooting and/or domestic brouhaha or road rage going nutz34.jpgor teenage vehicle larceny/“joy ride” excursions into traffic, bridges, and buildings close to my living area; and I said to my partner: “What’s happening? ..Is everyone just going nuts now?!!”

Then I opened my online-window-to-the-world and listened to Kaypache’s latest weekly astrology interpretations—which believe it or don’t, is usually pretty accurate in checking the energy pulse of the planet and all of us on it. (If interested, you can see it here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dv1XXy-lzR8&feature=share )

While his report was playing I initially wasn’t listening too closely, but then he started talking about this very thing that I had commented on this morning (around 12:50): “What’s happening? Is everyone going nuts now?”  And in his report he claims that we (the collective WE) are struggling to regain our balance in a system gone badly awry—meaning that our collectiveoperating-system’s balance is off.

kaypache5689Here are just a few quotes from the page that made perfect sense to me:

I use my life to see myself, by listening to the world.  When it’s bad I know it’s because the balance has been disturbed.

…OK, we’re walking the knife edge like a tight rope this week with Mars/Uranus in Aries squaring the Moon’s Nodes! It may be tricky to stay in balance and not impulsively strike out or stuff your anger regarding a particular person/situation and end up hurting the dog (get it? displaced anger is when you take your anger out on something/someone who has nothing to do with what you’re angry about = avoiding conflict).

Life (our unconscious soul intentions to evolve) may throw us some surprise curve balls designed to wake us up to unconscious behavior patterns. The challenge will be to take those curve balls AND ACTUALLY CHANGE rather than instinctively feel attacked and react through running, hiding, or fighting. If we can actually step up and out of the game which is the way Uranus brings liberation and enlightenment, we can make huge strides!…

 …There’s this old (personal and collective) wound that wants to come to the surface to be healed. …So be careful, be awake, be cautious, calm down, breathe, slow down… because anger and emotions will get triggered this weekend. Be prepared for it.”  Kaypache Lescher in “Astrology for the Soul, Feb 6th, 2019”

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So perhaps if I hadn’t just commented on Lee Harris’s energy report in the previous post, I might have ignored this warning, but since I had already mentioned it, and how even I seemed to be more reactive and not wanting to be social with my friends because of it, this seems to substantiate aspects of what Harris claimed also. The higher-frequency energies pouring in now are intensifying all aspects of our lives (like increased heat bringing a pot of once-tepid water up to bubble and boil), and that energy intensity creates more reactive situations for group interactions and for personal relationships.

There is no denying that life is hard at times. And this is one of those times made harder by flagrant incompetence and self-interested governance, wherever you look.

chaosenergy457.jpgChaos agents may have their purpose. You are seeing that purpose in action right now on a national scale, and it is not pleasant to watch or to experience for any of us. But it will create the opportunity for major changes—and THAT is what these higher-frequency energies are best at doing—raising the intensity of all interactions to force more harmonic resolution to an eventually higher playing field.

It just won’t be pretty or pleasant to endure it during the process.

Breathe….   Breathe…. (sigh) … Breathe.

 

 

Defining Identity

Who are you?   Who am I?who are you pic.png

Does it matter who we actually are?

Not sure in one sense, but I am sure that it matters who we believe ourselves to be, because that is the defining subconscious program used for our auto-reactive behaviors.

I’m writing about this subject because I just listened to Kaypacha’s latest astrology report of “dying to our old self” which I will list if anyone wants to hear it: (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d3w5diSVxCY&feature=youtu.be&fbclid=IwAR3XCCveJbdIsyVgIOnWqJQvdsKObh6osPnZpFf64wkfXgwp4G4ZQFt16fA )

Here are the more important points (to me) that I gleaned from it:  

“Our childhood gives us patterns, conditions, insecurities, fears that are challenging—(they are) blockages.  It is no mistake that few of us remember not only our past lives, but details of our first 3-5 years (of age).  This is an automatic psycho-spiritual survival mechanism.  We are so sensitive coming out of that womb. Vulnerable, open, unformed baby just emerging (into the environment) and into the energy around you. ….A lot of things happen to us (at that vulnerable time) that we suppress. We suppress the hurts, the wounds, the sadness, the grief, the losses, the fears that we felt in these early childhood years when we were beat up, or stepped on, or ignored, or neglected…”

(Next part is paraphrased here)  The world around you hits you all at once in your blank-slatedness—and some things that affect you early in your explorations of life are childseeingselfmirror56pleasant and make you feel good, but other things are NOT pleasant about those earliest experiences; and the NOT pleasant things during early brain formation from baby first emerging into the world until we develop that cause/effect reasoning at 3-5 years of age, are often the suppressed memories of early childhood that have affected us surreptitiously.

Those memories were so deeply buried that when something in the present happens adversely affecting us, we may react strongly with no visible basis for that reaction; meaning we can’t seem to match our automatic reaction to the affecting incident with a rational context for doing so.  Or in another example, we can’t see a reason for the discomfort we suddenly feel when walking into a room, or a rational reason for the deep-seated fear that might erupt in us over something in our present that seems to be so innocuous or innocent to others.

 “None of us were born into the perfect reality—the perfect family. And yet the early taboo is that ‘thou shalt honor thy father and thy mother’ where it’s not cool (allowed) for the child to hate or blame the parents for (the behavior s/he is experiencing from them).”

(Paraphrased) So if we, the child, think that if the parents can’t be to blame for his/her serious discomfort back then, then it must be US.  What’s wrong with me? Why don’t they love me? Why are they treating me like this? I must be bad. I must be unlovable. They can’t be wrong because they are the parents—so I must be wrong to feel what I’m feeling.

But in truth this present astrological time period that we are in, is the time to look closely at those suppressed early-childhood feelings and expose them for what they really are.

We need to honor our true feelings. Honor our inner child without being judgmental about why that child felt what s/he did at the time.  Honestly acknowledge that we are truly feeling what we presently feel, and allow ourselves to be who we truly are, despite who we may erroneously believe that we are. Only after this careful self-assessment can seeingtheinnerchild345we then shed our old skin to be the NEW being that moves onward from this day forward—leaving our old skin behind in the tall grass as evidence that we were once there, but we aren’t there any longer. We have chosen to move on with our lives.

Then from that place of honest reassessment for valid reasoning existing for your suppressed childhood feelings, you have to leave the ‘old you’ behind and nurture that NEW ‘baby-YOU’ into the person that you want to become with you as the loving parent that you may not have previously experienced.  You must let go of the old behavior patterns that you developed for whatever reason you once believed helped you to survive your past, and now choose a new mode of operation that matches your new vision for your life.

He says that this is the time of ‘karmic return’ for all of us—meaning what you have put out previously into the world around you is now coming back in your face.  It’s time to deal with your old behavior patterns—especially if they are not working well for you in the present.  Example being: If your life partner is saying ‘Stop doing this or that because it hurts me and it hurts us.’ Then they are really saying to you:  “Look at your stuff—you are making a mess here—stop doing that!”

So again I ask: Does it matter who we really are?

Yes, it definitely does.whowearequote34

 

Kaypache Lescher on “The Great Mystery of the Divine”

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zhcn__6FWUg&feature=share

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At present, Kaypache is into the shamanic astrology of Peru, where he is traveling.   I’ll just paraphrase a few of his statements here rather than use direct quotes:

In this video, he expounds on receiving direct transmissions from nature and the cosmos—letting Spirit speak directly to you or through you.  Spiritual awakening involves being taken out of this existence—of our returning to our Source—exploring our multidimensionality—witnessing the infinite universe—experiencing actual transcendence.  But it is spiritual awakening without using substances to do so—no hallucinogens—no ayahuasca—simply natural spiritual awakening, slowly and gradually.

He also believes (as I do) that it takes time to evolve and awaken.  You need patience, perseverance, endurance, … because true spiritual awakening happens very slowly—and it SHOULD BE slowly revealed because brief, powerful glimpses of the Divine can be more disrupting than slow, steady emergence into a higher state of being and emergence into the Bliss-field.

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But does my life have meaning? you still ask.

Well, similar to Alan Watts declarations, Kaypache says there is no meaning to our lives other than living—existing—you have NO particular purpose for this life—life existed prior to you and will exist long after you.  What we create in our lifetime is what we gain from life.

We aren’t here to find ourselves but to create ourselves.  We must go within and close our eyes and tap into Source or the Divine that wants to emerge out from us and be birthed into this world through our existence.  Or maybe NOT.    (Again he sounds very ‘Alan Watts’ here to me, but as I mentioned earlier, Alan Watts videos are resurging again which makes sense since Kaypache talks about that 51-year cycle beginning again now.)

When you can simply sit still, the truth is revealed, the mystery unfolds—all things come to whoever waits for them.

345kaypacha1-400x400 (2).jpgThis is the equinox point of the 51-year cycle of Chiron (the wounded centaur healer—the Master Teacher)—very powerful cycle for finding the deeper purpose in your life experience.

Chiron is also associated with crisis—like a physical health crisis.  That health crisis sits you down to reflect on your very existence.  This reflection time on our own mortality helps us to gain greater understanding of the archetypal energies of which we are only a part.

Kaypache’s parting words are: Take your time—be still—and in the stillness, the mystery of your life will be revealed.

 

“I close my eyes and what do I find,578AbsoluteBliss.jpg

My body, my Soul, and my mind,

Revealing to me when I’m ready to see,

The Great Mystery of the Divine.”

 

 

“Grasping the ‘Process of Becoming’”

This morning I was listening to my favorite layperson’s astrologer, Kaypacha Lescher, on kaypachalescher5.jpgthis week’s energy influences affecting us (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IKSKz3d03eI&feature=share ) and he said a few things that resonated with me that I wanted to pass along to anyone else who might be interested.

We, as all our ancestors before us have done,  are trudging the path of evolution; and no matter how essential it is that we all do this, it’s not an easy trek, especially in these latest energies flooding our lives at present.

During that somewhat difficult evolutionary life-journey, he said we must realize that taking life’s final bow while expelling one last breath isn’t the major achievement of a life well lived: “It’s not about reaching processofbecquote.pngthe goal, but grasping the “process of becoming” (that matters), so we can share, teach, and make it happen for us all together.”

I considered that statement: “Grasping the ‘process of becoming’.”   What does that really mean?

He elaborated on the importance of being here NOW: That this moment is where we presently are—being stretched thin between who we were in our past and who we will become in our future.  And the only place you can make any course adjustments for your journey, is in the NOW.

NOW—this moment—this time period, affects your path forward in every possible way.

NOW can make a course correction in your life by taking that first simple step in a completely different direction.

anisninquoteproofbec“In fact,” as Kaypacha further explained, “The key point between the sameness of your past and an entirely different future is your NOW.”

Meaning that if you aren’t happy about where your life presently is or what baggage your past actions have accumulated and you want to find deeper meaning to your life—to your reason(s) for being here, then do so right NOW because this moment is the gateway to the person you are next becoming.

The “becoming” itself is the most important part of the entire consideration here because it implies you/we are mid soul-state change. We are “evolving” into something other than what we presently are.

Evolution is one of those words we think only applies to Darwinian beasties who farwin quote6.jpglaboriously crawled from the ocean on leg-like fins, or swung from the trees supported by long tails that no longer exist.

But evolution simply means a process of changing from one mode of operation to another that is more productive and likely more survival-oriented for the species.

Personal evolution can also be both more productive and survival focused, but it can also apply to living a life that is more meaningful to us.

It is important for us to fully realize that we, as individuals and as a self-aware species, are “in the process of becoming”—but that we aren’t already there.  Legs on that fish didn’t appear mid-crawl, nor did chimps walk upright after a revelatory dream in the night.

We need to give ourselves the space and time to spiritually/mentally/emotionally evolve probecbutteryfly.jpgand recognize that the person we are right now will likely not be the same person that we are soon going to be.

Our forward movement just depends on that conscious choice to maximize this very moment by stepping boldly in the direction we NOW wish to travel.

Grasp the evolutionary process itself, but more importantly, grasp the opportunity to make course corrections in the NOW that you are being provided.

Rather than wasting time in regret of your unpleasant past or speculation on a too-distant future, use NOW as the forward action toward your dreams.

You are “becoming” whomever it is that you wish to be.