Long ago I felt that I was on the path to a great KNOWING—a certainty—a TRUTH, and this truth would be so absolute and clarifying that all falsehoods would fall from the sky around me, shattering like dirty windowpanes on the ground below—enabling me to see that TRUTH unobstructed for the first time.
I thought that when this sudden clarity arose within me (some call it ENLIGHTENMENT) I would KNOW and understand the WHY of it ALL—and I mean the ALL—I would understand the WHY of everything that we could even conceive and of all things presently existing beyond our comprehension that it CAN exist.
My erroneous belief was that this sudden KNOWING would allow me a deeper sense of peace because I would suddenly be aware of the PLAN to all existence and being. I would SEE the Great Design behind the workings of the world and all creatures in it.
What I did not realize at the time was that I had also assumed that the path of KNOWING was also the path of happiness achieved through understanding all WHYs of the ALL.
At present I no longer believe that such sudden knowing gives one a lasting sense of inner peace. I think it does allow for greater understanding of our mutual, polar experiences of love and hate, of goodness and badness, of happiness and sorrow.
KNOWING the workings of the world and all beings in it does not instantly create peace of mind in anyone still a part of that same world because such peace is a conscious choice that we make every moment of the day or night.
I realized a few years back that I could indeed find the answer within me to any question I might raise by allowing myself to reach a deeper level of silence—that is the level where KNOWING exists. And yes, there is definitely inner peace to be found at that level of KNOWING.
HOWEVER……when I returned back to the world that we all share—where we interact daily and where we are intentionally good or bad to each other in that same shared world, then that illusive sense of peace seemed to dissipate within me like morning mist under a rising sun. It was hard to be peaceful around so much dissonance and anger in the others I was encountering. It was especially difficult when the ones I cared most about were dissonant within themselves.
In other words—when I was in close association with others, I could not hold my energy as highly as the “peaceful-level frequency” required that it be held to sustain my own sense of inner peace while interacting with such dissonance. When my energy level dropped in frequency, my sense of peace seeped away with it.
It doesn’t surprise me that monks or holy people in general isolate themselves to attain and sustain those higher states of being with a deep sense of purposeful silence. That is the easiest way to reach and maintain profound inner peace.
The problem is that few of us live in isolation, which requires that we must daily state and live our intention to be at peace within ourselves and to share that same peacefulness with others.
Being at peace is a choice. It is an intention. We can’t expect world peace if we can’t tame ourselves prior to expecting it.
Anger and rage, hatred and fear, are all opposites of where we say that we want to be.
Love, compassion, forgiveness and acceptance are the paths to peaceful coexistence with everyone. And those are choices that we make daily!
No matter the circumstances, choose LOVE. Choose PEACE.
Those are the only answers that KNOWING will readily provide.